Yesterday the world stopped spinning.
The whole earth trembled.
Heaven came down to earth
as the Word was made flesh
in my womb.
Mine.
Though I am no queen,
no prophetess,
no Judith or Esther or Deborah.
Here in this nowhere town
dwells the creator of all the world.
I cannot say if there were trumpets,
though I heard them,
nor if choirs of angels sang God’s glory.
I only know my heart thrilled,
my spirit soared,
my soul sang
as the angel of the Lord called me God’s own
and asked me to bear his Son.
But that was yesterday.
Today the angel is gone,
and so too the astonishing peace,
the silence in my heart so loud it fairly shook.
Today I am not wandering
like one in a dream,
a secret smile touching my lips
as my hand returns again and again to rest
over the spot where Life himself has chosen to live.
Joy still, yes, and wonder.
Who am I that my Lord should come to me?
Still my heart is full and still my head spins with the glory of it all.
But today I have to think:
what next?
Perhaps I imagined it,
fell asleep in the warm afternoon sun
and turned the words of the prophet
into my fate.
Perhaps it was a dream,
a temptation,
a trick of the light.
And yet there has never been anything so real
as that shocking moment of peace,
that clarity of confusion.
Nobody could hear what I heard
and see what I saw
and not believe.
But they did not see.
Nor did they hear.
And today I must wake from this dream I am living
and act.
What will he say, when I tell him this thing that has never been told before?
Will he rage against what cannot be believed,
call me out for a liar and call my neighbors out with stones?
He would have that right.
But no.
My Joseph so gentle could never.
He will not shout, will not condemn.
But still he may not believe.
And the sorrow in his eyes would break my heart
if it did not beat for another Heart than his.
He may turn from me,
divorce me,
and leave me alone with this Child who will save him, too.
I am not afraid,
exactly.
My life is not my own.
And He who has chosen me will take me where I need to be.
Though that may be death or disgrace,
though a sword may pierce my heart,
I know he will be with me.
But
but
but I cannot help but hope
that the love of this good man will be stronger than his doubt,
that my parents will believe,
that I and my son will be safe.
As I walk from the radiance of the angel’s presence
into the darkness of the unknown,
God-with-me guides my steps,
though we may walk through the valley of the shadow of death.
And while my flesh may fear
my heart will choose to trust.
Even when I cannot see him
I will be faithful:
the handmaid of the Lord.
Beautiful. Thank you.
This is amazing. I love it.
Meg this is so beautiful thank you for posting and my Our Lady always interceed for you, your Angel protect you God Bless you
Meg, this is so beautiful, thank you for sharing
Amazingly beautiful and grace filled poem and the best i’ve ever read on annunciation.
Wonderful, and surely this must be so close to the thoughts of the Blessed Virgin, our dear Mother. Thanks, Meg, for being so open to God and for having the courage to share, because anyone reading these words will surely be drawn closer to Mary and closer to the Lord, as I was. I hope you do not mind if I read this poem to people in my parish in England.
So beautiful and inspired, thank you.
Thanks for sharing this again!
I love this. That’s the thing about revelation, though, isn’t it? The veil always comes back down. It reminds me of that story about Pascal having that intense mystical experience, and sewing the reminder into his jacket to wrap himself in it always: “Fire fire fire. Not the god of the philosophers, but the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.”
You know what other Biblical figure I think of so often about these issues? A much less exalted one: the Good Thief. “Today you will be with me in Paradise.” Peace. Certainty. Clarity, at last. Forgiveness. But then… quiet. He’s not talking to you anymore, not talking to anyone. Maybe He passes away before you, and the silence intensifies. ‘Okay, cool. So, um, we’re sure about this Paradise thing, right? Yes. Definitely. But also? There are a lot of jeering people here, and they seem pretty convinced this dude’s nuts. No. We’re sure. But … like, can we start a little sooner? This is not fun. I mean, like I said, I deserve this, but if I’ve been offered what sounds like an eternal loophole, I’d really be in favor of starting NOW.’ The Good Thief is my buddy: he only had to be faithful for a few hours, but what hours…
Did you write this? It has a lot of promise. If you did write this, good for you. Keep up the good work and God bless you. A very touching piece of poetry.